It has been an eventful couple of weeks and I'm just now beginning to catch my breath and get adjusted to the pure amount of life change that I've been experiencing. Finding myself knee deep in wedding planning while still being newly self-employed is slightly daunting, but I’m thrilled to be here! I would have never planned the events in my life to go this way, but God has been showing me to loosen my grasp on my own plans and expectations because His are far better than mine ever could be.
Now, I know, I know. I just got engaged. What could I possibly be talking about? You might be thinking of course that’s easy to say! But there’s so much more to it than that. You know from experience that there’s more to every picture posted online and more to every, "I’m doing great!" There’s so much more. The behind the scenes of our lives is the part that I’m talking about. The nitty gritty, less glamorous version of ourselves that doesn’t get the double tap on Instagram. I guess what I’m trying to say is that even though I am in an incredibly joyous and exciting time in my life, I still have a thousand unanswered questions. How’s and why’s and when's and what's galore. But this is what I do know: God has proved his faithfulness to me over and over and over again. If you would have told me last year at this time that I would be getting married, I may very well have laughed in your face. No, on second thought, I definitely would have laughed in your face. But here I am. I feel humbled and thankful at how God is working in my life.
How He Proposed
I’m fairly certain I could recount this story in my sleep based on the sheer amount of times I've repeated it over the past two weeks, but in case you missed it..
I had been in Hawaii just a few days, but JB still had to work. I would drop him off and explore solo until I could see him again. As a result, I hadn’t actually seen him all that much. This is the reason when he mentioned catching the sunrise the next day before work I didn’t think much of it (hindsight 20/20). When my alarm went off at 5am the next morning it was not my first response to jump joyfully out of bed. But then I realized it was Hawaii. I could do it for Hawaii. I threw on a Tshirt & shorts and didn’t bother putting on makeup. My phone was almost dead so I left that behind. I glanced at my camera and debated whether I should bring it or not. I literally said, “If I don’t bring it something amazing will happen, so I better.” JB took me to Starbucks, no doubt trying to make ensure I would be fully awake, alert, and ready to make life changing decisions. When we arrived at the beach no one was around except a fisherman in the distance. We headed in the opposite direction, walking and talking while I sipped my coffee. We stopped for a minute and JB began saying sweet things to me. Lots of sweet things. But I was still strangely oblivious. I didn’t think much of it because JB telling me things like that isn’t out of the ordinary. But then it progressed and when it hit me that he was proposing I froze for a second in shocked-happy-disbelief. (I think I scared him to death.) Then he got down on one knee and showed me the most beautiful ring I have ever seen. I feel like I have some authority to say this because I have seen a lot of them! But I also might be a tiny bit biased. Just a little. :)
The most entertaining piece of the story is what happened directly after the proposal. Before we left the beach I wanted to get a photo to post online and announce the engagement. And of course, I did not choose something simple or easy to execute. I wanted to simultaneously catch a wave with my hand and YES written in the sand. JB was left to take the photo, with his iphone and my Canon that he’d never used before. We have countless photos like the first two on the left and exactly 2 photos like the one on the right. We spent 30 minutes laughing at ourselves as we tried to time the wave, rewrite yes, get in position, wait, shoot, and repeat yet again. It finally paid off and at least now I can say that JB knows what he’s getting himself into. ;)
Part II Coming Soon!